I sat in my Senior English class in high school. Our classroom opens into the hallway; movable panels separate our classroom from the next. This particular classroom sits on the end of our hallway. I spent a fair number of my afternoon hours in this room that year. One afternoon, I got into a discussion with a classmate, he was popular and the class president, if memory serves. During this discussion he calls me a ‘sumo wrestler’. I am both Chinese (not Japanese) and overweight.
It was a derogatory reference to both my race and my weight. Having dealt with interactions like this often, I understood that while I need not escalate, I did need to respond. In my mind, I searched for a proportional response. I called him a ‘spook’; yes, he was black. I knew it was derogatory and racist, and I still did it.